Day nine of the fast

I almost gave up the fast yesterday morning. I had a dream in which I saw a bowl of a delicious-looking dish made of salmon eggs and noodles, all mixed in together. I started eating it before I realized that I wasn't supposed to be eating. I said, "Oh no! I'm supposed to be on a fast." Then I said to the person who provided the food, "Well, I guess I just broke my fast." Then I laughed. When I woke up, I told my husband John about the dream, and said maybe that was an indication that I should start eating again. But he said, "I think you should stick with the fast. You've already gone through the worst part of it, and as long as your weight doesn't drop down too low, you should continue."

Then I thought about what the dream might mean, other than breaking the fast. The salmon eggs were larger than normal caviar eggs, and the noodles were also of a rather strange consistency. When I feel the breast tumor, I now feel little nodules--kind of like the fish eggs in my dream. I think the noodle/egg dish I was eating is the cancer!

One theory about how the fast works on cancer is that cancer cells demand glucose to grow and survive. On a total fast, no glucose is being provided, so the cancer cells die. Also, without glucose being provided for fuel, the body begins to consume its reserves, beginning with muscle at first, then fat. The body goes into "ketosis" at that point. Although I have no scientific evidence to show that the body would "eat" the cancer cells, I am working with that image in my visualizations. The dream gave me a very clear visual image to work with; it makes me feel good to think that I am "eating up my cancer."

I don't feel as hungry today as before, even with John cooking up one of my very favorite foods last night, curried red lentils. I enjoyed the smells, but they didn't drive me as crazy as the smells did a couple of days ago. Still, I prefer to stay away from people eating.

My friend Kyla gave me a wonderful massage again yesterday. I think massage is essential when on a fast. After the massage I did five minutes of "vibing" with the VIBE machine. Then my friend Ree and her two girls and my daughter Veronica and I went to see the movie Marley and Me--a real tear jerker, but very enjoyable.

This morning I was going to go to Kyla's yoga class, but didn't get ready in time, so I did yoga at home--a very slow and easy yoga session done to beautiful music. It felt so good to stretch and move!

Essential things to do while on a fast:
get a good massage often
do easy yoga every day
spend some time with good friends and laugh a lot
meditate
cuddle with your spouse and children
pay attention to your dreams
read uplifting books
watch feel-good movies
pet your pets
stay warm (the sauna is great!)
spend time with plants--either house plants or outdoors
spend time sitting in the sunlight

Things to avoid when on a fast:
being around people who are eating
watching TV, especially commercial TV stations
stressful situations
getting chilled
strenuous exercise
driving